June 13, 2019

How to deal with negative feedback

Most days I welcome feedback of my work. I can take a subjective opinion or a well thought out critique, even if I disagree, even from people who don't know that much about it.

But some days are difficult. There are moments when I feel especially vulnerable, and am overly sensitive and susceptive to the smallest criticism or critique. 

Recently I heard just the tiniest negative comment about my paintings and it threw me. I went to the studio and mentally applied that one comment to everything I was working on. I was more annoyed at myself for letting it affect me than the comment itself which was inconsequential at best. 

Sometimes it's good to take a step back and remember who we are and why we're doing what we're doing. I keep a journal in my studio specifically to jot down thoughts that I'm having a hard time articulating. Here's what I wrote: 

Fuck it! No one's here but me- my spirit- my soul- my body- my mind- God within me. We're working today and fuck everything else

June 12, 2019

My Studio Today

Today is the first day in three months that I have felt remotely at ease. I looked at the date and realized it is literally three months to the day of a big moment for me. Something that has changed the way I look at life and myself. I'm a proud non-believer in coincidences.

I also worked in the studio today for the first time in a long time, and that has probably more to do with my state of contentment than anything else. But numbers are interesting is all I'm saying!